In 2001, Julianne left town. She took Caden with her. And rightfully so. I was a financial, emotional and spritual mess. I wanted them close, but there was not a lot I could do. What I didn’t expect was how my brain would react. Every stranger with a kid that would walk by… I saw Caden. And it would take a minute for my brain to click back into focus: this was someone else. As the months went by, it became worse…
Song name: The Garden
Written by: Barry Craig, 2008
Performances on this recording: Barry, Jun, Jeremy, Josh, and Joey
Last updated: Added Jun’s guitars September 2018. Added Jeremy’s drums September 2014.
Must have fallen over the ledge. Wings encircled. Brother prepared the soul. Real plans worth burning. Fighting again. And you, oh you, bring me to… what I already knew. Now I’m writing in this absurd Web journal. Sending presents, never returned. All the legos, rainy days. We are falling! Every way. It’s funny. Once the garden called to me. Once, a God in arms for me. I am the one to blame and my soul’s aflame. Can’t focus on today, I think, that’s my son. You were a soul in play, and I let you down. Was it all in vain? I want back my son. Leaves of holly over the ledge. What a calling, falling snow by you. Falling down. Yeah. A little… a little… a little… far. Once the garden called to me. Once, a God in arms for me. I am the one to blame and my soul’s aflame. Can’t focus on today, I think, that’s my son. You were a soul in play, and I let you down. Was it all in vain? I want back my son. And you’re gone today. When will we meet again? On a sunny day, I walk past my son.
Insights and Interpretations:
Garden is a song about the memories of my son, how much I miss him, and how I struggle to deal with the psychological ramifications of his absence.